A Farewell to Remember..

So after an unexpected all nighter on Friday and work Saturday morning it's safe to say I woke after maybe 3 hours I broken sleep and say on the couch feeling sorry for myself and a million reasons on how to get of work. After some water headache pills and a long shower I stated to convince myself I felt fine and that i must do it because I need the money! I got my Trackies on had some more water a smoke and a piece of toast I was unsure how would go down, it turned out it was the right thing to do. I also asked mum if she wanted to be awesome and drive me because facing the public and travelling on a bus for 30 odd minutes I was in no state! She said yes! Legend! Work was busy enough to keep consistent movement and jobs to be done it was finishing time already yay this was a miracle and not at all brutal as I was expecting it to be.. This improved my mood.. I don't know about you but I am one of those people who organises nighs out or parties and then spends every moment building up to it over thinking every single aspect until I ruin it for myself and do my own head in last nights Farewell was no different and after working with one if my closest friends Sarah and her making it obvious she was so tired and that maybe going last night might be to hard so I cracked it and told her if she was too tired and it was too much trouble don't come, this hurt me thinking she didn't want to go and that she might not go, I am a creature of sensitive emotions and when it comes to the people I love and adore I am sensitive and like to and need to know that I am loved just as much and that I am important to them like they are to me I mean why should t I be...!? In saying this I am aware I can be over the top - Danii you know this now hahaha x so with my emotions high and feeling hurt and sad that maybe Sarah and Claudia may not show up I was feeling rejected and mentally I wanted Nothig to do with the night at all and also clouding a nasty hang over and less then 3 hours sleep it was a tense afternoon .. I got home kicked back opened a drink just later low relaxed then decided it was time to shower get ready and find my party mood and by this time Sarah had messaged me decided she was coming and that we were both over tired cunts we love each other again... Lol 

We arrived at the Highway just after 6 on I was a little late to my own party how classy lol and lucky we got there when we did because even though it was so early the place was packed loud and cranking beats beltin out coloured lights and lounges and plans creating a beer Garden that was cool warm welcoming and comfortable and by the time we had drinks and got our table and seats my first guests arrived, I was happy thankful and ready to party hard!! It wasn't long and more guests arrived the night was going perfectly to plan everyone having a good time and getting along.. Most of the invite list had arrived and then my sister and her husband and their two girls turned up and with them Lexi was carrying a gift bag inside was a personalised necklace that is unique personal and Sam had specially made it contains a Plane a Music Note a Canera an A for Alexis and a C for Callie when Sam explained the reason and meaning behind it - All the things I hold close to my heart and that I can keep close while I'm away from home and my loved ones - Music Travel Photography and my two perfect nieces, I am still overwhelmed and my eyes are filling with tears as I write this - I wasn't expecting anything and especially this the most thoughtful special heartfelt gift - again me with my high emotions it's a personal thing for me and My Sister - we haven't always had the best of bonds in recent years due to my bad choices and lifestyle but as she gave me the gift and explained it's meaning it gave me the hope and realisation that maybe we are back on a track that will leave us with the unbreakable bond we once had she is my sister my best friend and life without her is a life I couldn't exist or survive in.. I wore my necklace and the night was amazing my closest friends a few missing but with good reason and my family it was a night filled with cocktails love and so much laughter! My voice is a little rough today but I am hardly suprised!! My cousin Lisa was there she's like the older sister I never had and when Sam Lisa n I are together it's as though we become black Americans all ghetto and gangster it's fucking hilarious!! We smashed up the dance floor Gettig our ghetto crump on it was the most fun I have had in so long I really needed a night like last night loud messy drunken bootyfull shakin good fun and it was exactly what I wished it would be the only thing really missing was Danii but she had her own leaving party to attend and I've been told it was a good one :-) The end of the night was messy at one stage I was on the dance floor with a cocktail jug full and a straw just dancing and drinking and smiling and losing myself in the music and the crowd - Bliss .. Sarah Claudia and I were the last ones standing and with being drunk and women and general it got emotional I cried they cried then we laughed then it was time to go it was for the first time official I said my first lot of goodbyes to all my friends I was sad for it being the last time I will see them in a while but the reality of how real and close this journey is made me so happy!! Danii will be here Wednesday morning that's only 3 sleeps Thursday morning we board that plane and off we go, there are actually no words to describe how I am feeling impatient excited happy anxious ready BRING IT ON we have 4 flights that day and it's going to be a long day but it's the very start of our adventure and I am sure there will already be stories!! Hurry Up damn it I get butterflies thinking about it it's so close fuck!! Hahahaha.. 

I woke up this morning again with very little sleep after retiring at about 5 am and  I woke at about 8 with my two babies Lexi n Callie we've all spent the day hangin out Mama B goes home tomorrow :-( Today we went to the Jetty Bar and had a few drinks and lunch and then I hit a real rough patch creeper hangover and lunch lingering in my stomach making me sick we had a quiet afternoon and Mama B actually had a nap I played with the kids and had snuggles and watched a movie now we are driving to Gawler to drop them home and have a family Sunday Roast another good night ahead I am sure :-) I started yesterday as a sooky brat stressig over Nothing other then what I make up in my own mind and I ended it feeling loved and that I'll be missed and that yes I am just as important to the people who are important to me!! Lol So happy with the night shit was so good oh and Claudia's brother David picked us up and we got pulled over and I was in the back with Sarah and we were emotional and crying and my make up all smudged and Claudia was laughing and told the police officer I was crying and he bent down and looked in and asked why and Sarah said cause she's fucking leaving the country she's leaving me and he laughed and asked where I was going and I said New Zealand he asked why I replied have you seen kiwi men?? We all laughed then we drove away lol 

So after tonight and Mama B leaving tomorrow I have all my washing to do and my room to clean again - it seems that's all I ever do lol - work Tuesday then Wednesday night family dinner out somewhere in Glenelg then finally it'll be the day!! I can not wait to see Danii Wednesday it's felt as though it's takin a lifetime to get here and it's so close now it drives me insane I justs am so excited to start this journey and get on with the good times!!  Mama B coming here for the weekend has meant the world to me as I love her so much I'm gonna miss her but she is coming to visit us in NZ so again more to look forward to!! But for now I think I've said enough time to finish my drink :-) 

Much Love K