Magic in the Air

You know it's morning's like these that I am reminded of exactly why I decided to pack up and move abroad. Sitting in my room last night and I hear my name called by Fiona - it was calm and quiet and I could not pick it in her voice what she wanted - or what I might have done, but as I walked into the dining room she pulled back the curtains with a smile on her face and said - If it stays like this you'll wake up to snow. And that's exactly what I did. I am like a kitten with a new toy, like a child on Christmas morning. Bright eyed and camera in hand out I went to play in the snow.. Hahahaha..

You see that delicate white mess and it's fuel for the soul. There's something about it that calms your inner peace, that opens your eye's and you realize you are so blessed to live this life you are living. It's exciting and new and oh so beautiful! I grabbed a stick and wrote message's to my loved one's at home - Hi Mum - Sam BJ Kim - Lexi and Callie - then there wasn't quite enough to build a snowman, so I drew one in the snow and sent a picture for my nieces. It's moments like this that make my heart happy. That I am here for. It's images that I capture and that will mentally last forever. 

I put on my coat and my boots and I went for a walk. It started to snow again as I was walking and again there is something oh so magical about the snow falling around you. falling and sticking to your face and hair - it's freezing cold but it's just magic! 

I am so happy I am able to capture these moments and images and share them with my loved ones back home... This whole way of life is so different and so magical, and I am so Thankful I am able to live it and experience and share with you all.. 

I hope you all enjoy my journey through the pictures as much as I do!!

Love and Miss you all.. 

Kisses Kat xoxo

The road to recovery..

Well Well Well.. What a difference this life has just now become - and all for the better :-) I started work this week - I worked on Tuesday and Thursday - Friday - Saturday - First Week training almost complete and a success.. I can not honestly tell you how great the change is!! I am apart of team, working somewhere I never thought I would be, and have the availability to learn all kinds of new things!! And the best of all - I am capable - and I am already back to the old happy fun and active me!!! :-) I feel fucking great!! Honestly it is so good!!! I walked in the door after work this morning and Nanna was in the kitchen and she was so happy and excited and hugged me - She's excited for me and that was so so lovely - Bless her - and Fiona - NZ Mum was all smiles and happy as well expressing how proud of me she is - such a lovely extra little benefit and what an amazing way to be greeted home.. I love you guys xx

It's amazing what a a positive action can do.. Last week I was feeling fat and down and lonely and ready for the mother ship to come and take me out of this life... I got the call Tuesday morning to start that afternoon and the change within was instant - by the time I had hung up the phone - Kat was back. I was here, I  was ready, a new woman born again.... Everyone at work seem so lovely and nice, easy to get along with so that makes things so much more comforting :-) I am blown away at the fast change within myself and I think being so eager and excited for work since I started I have totally skipped the nerves which never happens - so I am guessing it is meant to be, and this week has by far been the best week since I arrived in this gorgeous country!!!  

On Monday I decided it was time I did something different go on a little self adventure and discover something beautiful so that is exactly what I did!! There is a (Hiking/Trek Trail) it's called Tunnel Beach and it's only a few minutes up the road, so I asked Danii to drive me there on her way to work she was lovely enough to do that so, off on my adventure I went.. Rain and Hail wasn't enough to stop me.. I had no idea what I was in for other than the most amazing scenery, and again the weather wasn't enough to stop the beauty of the place - I was a little restricted as to what I was able to see and do but still I found serenity. 

I think the thing I enjoyed most about my little adventure (which surprised me) was the time alone - not that I haven't spent enough time alone! Ha. But honestly the walk the fresh cold air on my face the silence in my brain, nothing but nature, the sound of the loud and aggressive ocean crashing against the rocks the spooky wind throughout the air, it was home. It was a spiritual journey and I gained a lot from it. I spent so much time dwelling on the disappointments of what I thought was going to be, rather then focusing on what was the now and what was surrounding me all of this time. I challenged myself. I took a step out of the box and found myself surrounded by everything but comfort.  I was alive. I was living. I was doing what I have set out to do - Explore a different part of this world. Experience. Live. Find myself. And I did the same again yesterday when i went to the Botanic gardens, and once again the time of year and weather restricted the outcome but I still found what I was looking for.. I discovered something new and took another spiritual journey. I pushed myself physically, mentally and emotionally.. Walking for hours up steep tracks over looking gardens and the city of Dunedin, walking streets I hadn't walked before enjoying and taking in the scenery, the different houses the historic look of this gorgeous place. I got some more great pictures of trees and birds and all things nature and I fed my soul. 


Bigger and Better things are headed my way and I stand here arms open and wide and ready for whatever is to come... It is kind of surreal feeling this happy and free and at peace with myself and the world. 

A few weeks ago I wasn't sure what was heading my way and where I would be or what I would be doing. I wasn't sure if work would come through or if I would be forced to head home, but once again, I have won. I have survived and I am stronger than ever!!! I am so excited... My journey finally begins.. 

I had so many dreams and hopes and plans when I made the choice to move here, and bit by bit they are starting to form. Things change and people change, and yesterday's dreams are over and new ones are created. If there is anything I have learnt from change, it is that I can survive it, and I grow from it. My dream is only my dream and I know that now.. My life is my life . It is only I that predicts and shapes what it will be. I live for freedom. I live for adventure. I live to see the world, and most importantly I live for MYSELF.... Someday's I will be surrounded by all the ones I love, other days it will be just me, and that is perfectly ok with me.... I am where I am supposed to be and that's on the road heading UP UP AND UP.... 

Some other exciting news - Danii has found herself a wee little unit she will share with a group of flatmates so I am so so excited for her - I remember the first time I left home and how exciting it was - So yay for Danii - You go girl xx

It feels so good to write something fun and happy and positive - it is so good to feel like me again.. 

Until next time I'll keep the adventure coming and the happy snaps plenty!!

Love and Miss you all K xoxo 

Lucky for Life!

It's not been the trip of a lifetime by any means, and a few weeks ago if I was able to run home I would have - BUT I am so blessed and thankful I was unable to do that. I have spent my whole life running away and quitting this being the most exciting scary and lonely thing I have done yet I am happy to stick it out.. Things are not always what they seem, but you take the bad with the good and you turn the negatives into positives!And I am so blessed to be surrounded by good people who have both welcomed into their lives and homes I am truely thankful to them all!!!  I am in this country that is so unique so interesting and has so much to offer, despite my fails and wins I am here I am thankful and I am only just beginning. I guess the biggest challenge so far has been the bad luck in the work force - I am starting to go a little bat shit crazy but with any luck - Lord any at all please I am begging - I may have pulled my last interview off - I will stay numb until I know for sure!! I have much to offer this world and I am ready and able to welcome all this life has to offer me!!! Dunedin is an unsual place  but equally stunning and interesting. It has some of the coolest street art I have ever come across in my LIFE - 

The street art is everywhere here and it is inspired by people all over the world and it is HUGE entire walls are painted in bright colours of all different kinds of things it's so amazing!!! Credit to the artists I am so jealous of their skill!!! Lol 

The food around here is amazing and the Cafe life is so cool and artistic and hip it again is insane!!! The Cafes are all set up real hipster style lol and one named Modaks was so so cool the have these huge cookie jar style things on the table filled with stuff and little squirrels and then they have these old vintage style cups full of raw sugar just the little things that make a difference - and almost everywhere you go here have arcade games and or board games available for entertainment again it's the small things - 

Again everything is so cool and funky I could and probably should one day just spend the entire day taking photo's of all the cool shit - one day... Lol 

Day to day life here in Dunedin is I guess the same as any people get up they go to school they go to uni they go to work - and I still find it doesn't matter where I am what I am doing there is always something new exciting artistic a landscape beauty to see connect and look at and that I guess is the beauty of this place!!! The beaches as I have said before amazing so big and blue and loud and rough and amazing I could watch them all day it truely is my happy place no matter where in the world I am the ocean is always home.. 

These particular beach pics were taken on a Saturday it was cold and hard to even get these few pics because it was so cold and windy and the beach we were over looking is near an old ran down Castle it is so beautiful and as we got ready to leave and drive away I noticed the Rainbow over the water at the beach so of course had to stop and get a picture :-) There is still so much to see and do in Dunedin I have unfortunately kept myself away and hidden it hasn't yet been all I have hoped for but that's my own fault - looking for work and applying for jobs has been more nerve racking then I had origionally anticipated and it came to my attention the past 3 years I haven't really had to the normal trial/interview process so yes I am finding it hard but fingers crossed this recent job comes through!!! Although I have a lot more luck and interest in the Photography feild and to my happiness I have been accepted into a Photography course starting in July so for that I am so excited :-) And last but not least my absolute most favourite moments so far has been the snow that lasted for about 24 hours but what a beautiful moment and another tick off of my Bucket List :-) It was the coldest I have ever been in my life but that didn't stop me from heading out side and getting around the snow! Lol I sat outside on the balcony and just watched it fall - it truely is magical there wasnt enough to build a snow man or make a snow angel but winter is so close it shouldn't be too long... Although I found myself watching the snow fall and felt like a little girl again in a world full of magic and beauty!!! As it falls it is so delicate and graceful it fell and the wind often blew it into my face and still as cold as it was I loved it - is 100% the highlight so far and I can't wait for more!! NZ Mum Fiona said I was like a little kitten with a new toy hahaha and I so was I am so thankful I was able to witness such a sight :-)

And I guess the best thing so far about being here is I am able to play around with my wardrobe and change things up a little Ive gone from firey red head to Iced Chocolate and LOVE it and I am more open minded with my clothes it's all in the name of GOOD FUN!!! 

Well that is all for now until next time in which I hope I have a job and true adventure can start I leave you with Love and Happiness!! 

Be Kind Take care Peace!

Love from Kiwi Land K

xoxoxoxo

Emotions abroad..

I read a lot of Blogs before I made my move to New Zealand, and they all shared tips and experiences on emotion and the change and what I may expect in my venture abroad.. What I wasn't expecting was to feel all the sadness and emotions so soon, I've been here a week.. Saturday was Anzac day and i must admit I went to my very first dawn Service and it was such a full on emotion overload, they Spoke of Obviously the New Zealand Soldiers, but also a lot about the Aussie Soldiers and this made me so home sick. They sang the Aussie national anthem and that had me in tears, all I wanted was to be home with my mum and sister and neices and enjoying what I know which is my family!! Later in the day on Saturday I was still over emotional, I put it down to being home sick and over tired, I woke at 4am for the service, I went to the super market later on that day and purchased some chocolate, with that came a realization I hadn'  t eaten chocolate since i arrived and then thought wow I actually ate chocolate every single day pretty much since Easter eggs were put on the shelf.. Was it addiction.. Was my body craving chocolate and I hadn't realized my addiction for it - well I can happily tell you ever since I put that chocolate goodness in my mouth I haven't cried since and every thing has been peachy fucking keen again!! Hahahaha Cracks me up!! 
Everything is so beautiful here in Dunedin, it's very historic and I love that shit.. I've been really slack with my photography since I got here, so I am looking forward to getting out and about one day this week to fill up on photo's again I am having withdrawls lol..

Last night Danii, Mum - Fiona - Dad - craig - Nanna and I all went out for dinner, we went to this really cool Pizza Place, it had mad art all throughout it and this awesome Bicycle up on the wall and an old school Milkshake maker - Milkshakes are Danii and My thing Lol..  I got a few pic's, and the Pizza was AMAZING!! ;-) 
Saturday night I went with Mum - Fiona and Bex to Fiona's sisters dance thing called - cerroc - it was SO COOL - it's basically old school rock n roll and swing dance style and I loved it.. It was so good to watch everyone and Reawyn's husband John is going to teach me I am so excited - I've always wanted to learn :-) After that I went out to Danii's work she was working but it was dead so I had a few drinks and then Danii friend Nikita finished so she drank with me - I love that girl she's such a sweetheart and such a rockstar in her own little way :-) Bex Danii's older sister and now mine - LOL has three gorgeous girls - Aurora - Bella and Allegra they are such cuties, Bex was over with the older two and Aurora made me a little picture it's hanging on the wall with my gorgeous girl Lexi's picture she made me before I left xxx :-) I video'd with mum on saturday and she had the girls - oh I'm such a sook I just looked at their gorgeous perfect faces and cried hahahaha Aunty Katta's Cheeky monsters!!!! I must ask Sam to get the girls to draw me some pictures and post them so I can hang them up :-) xx
I am excited for Tuesday the uni has an open day for all the courses I am keen on - Photography - Journalism - Beauty therapy and maybe even Hairdressing - It's from 9-3 so a full day, and I might even take a copy of my CV into the cafe there it can't help.. All the cafe's I have left CV's so far have said they are not hiring ATM but things always change so you never know I might get a call soon...... Fingers Crossed!! I can't wait to get into a course or job and meet people and make some friends I am kind of relying on Danii ATM and she's picked up alot of extra shifts at work which is great so I need to meet people :-) I am having such a great time though :-) Today is a public holiday here so not much s open if we don't plan on doing anything I might get Danii to take me aroudn so I can get some pics the street art around here is AMAZING!! So uni open tomorrow and then quiz night tomorrow will be fun :-) 

The weather is strange as awell Saturday was quite warm which is odd and apparently means snow is on the way but none yet :-( Yesterday was gorgeous and sunny and actually hot but today it's over cast grey and cold Lol wonder what tomorrow will be like.. 

Well for now I will love and leave you have a bit of a headache this morning.. 

Until next time Much Love K xxx

Settling in Well x

Hey Guys & Gals, 

Well here I am living in New Zealand - I made it!! We made it!! To be honest I was a little unsure, but so far so good!!! 

Thursday was an emotionally hectic day, but 4 flights later lots of laughter and free cider on our plane from Auckland to Wellington we made it to our destination and by the time we did I wont be lying when I say Danii and I are both completely happy to steer clear of planes for a while!!! Although we did manage to keep others passengers well in truely entertained as I am sure you can all imagine!!

I was so sad saying goodbye to my beautiful family on Thursday morning, my last day was a very tense and anxious one, and mum and I bickered for most of it - but turning it iinto a positive I would have been worried if we hadn't.. LOL My last night in Australia was lovely we had a family dinner at a beautiful chinese shop in Glenelg mum used to take Sam and I when we were kids - Mum, Sam, BJ, the girls Kim and BJ's parents Kathy and Brian all came, it was great - Lots of laughs!! Afterwards Mum Sam Bj Kim the girls and I all walked down Jetty Road for ice cream that was so yummy!! We got home and I was quiet and again anxious, the presence of my beautiful and amazing family filled me with so much love and joy - I just sat back quietly watching them listening to them and loving them - Like a Creep!! Hahahhaha.. I slept with the girls that night and held them both so close hugging them and gave them a kiss my heart so fucking heavy!! My cheeky monsters - I miss them already!!! Waaaaahhhhh!!!

I finally feel asleep around midnight and my alarm was set for 3.30am airport at 4.30 it felt as though I had just fallen to sleep when I heard my alarm, I woke with tears in my eye's both pain and pleasure finally the day was here but now so were the goodbyes... 

 Mum took me to the airport she herself and anxious and nervous and I think a little sad and worried because we had spent the last day bitching at each other, but she just worrie's for and about me - MUM I AM DOING GOOD!! Lol xx

Our time was up our first flight of many had announced it was time to board - I hugged all of my family so tight and told them I loved them with a choking voice and tear filled eyes, mum was crying and sam and of course me the kids barely hugged me Lol but's that's not unusual - they are too small to understand! LOL lexi stood at the wall thing waving and yelling she loved me this shattered my heart and sent me into a fit of uncontrollable tears LOL ... We found our seats on the plane got comfy and pretty much pinched ourselves - IS THIS REAL ARE WE ACTUALLY HERE ARE WE DOING THIS!!!??? LOL

We were both so excited - Our first flight was to Melbourne, I was excited because my Best Dragon Friend Amy was meeting us at the airport I hadn't seen her since she moved there earlier in the year so that was very exciting!! We got off the plane and Amy was waiting I all but ran to her and gave her a big hug I was so happy to see her, although our time was cut short because we had to go through customs ect - which I was SO SAD because they threw away like it was nothing an almost full bottle of my favourite perfume weight limits or some shit :-( We boarded our next flight Melbourne to Auckland,We purchased to vodka's each this made us giggly and the guy next to us appreciated our antics rather then curse at them hahaha at this stage we were both tired and could have had naps but we didn't LOL - we kept ourselves entertained through flight and eventually landed in Auckland - this was it officially official I was no longer in Australia - I collected my bags and checked them in all the way to Dunedin, once sorted we got some food I had a much needed smoke then caught the bus to our next flight - Auckland to Wellington, almost there... Again no sleep on the flight - although we were given free fancy cheese and Cider this excited us!! And now finally we had arrived in Wellington, although this flight we didn't get off the plane we just waited while they refueled and clean and then new passengers arrived and now definately at this time we were over tired and acting crazy LOL although we did enjoy having a giggle at the passenger across from us snap chatting in positions only described as sexual.. That was our inflight entertainment sorted!!! Hahahahahahhaha 

AND NOW FINALLY FINALLY WE ARE HERE!!! We finally with much happiness and sore and tired eyes got off the plane and were greeted by Mum and Dad - Fiona and Craig - they had big smiles and warm and welcoming hugs for us both :-) It was such a relief to finally be here, but a whole lot of new reality hit!! I was a little teary eyed but I was and am Happy :-) 

We got home and our rooms were all set up nice and pretty with easter egg baskets waiting for us and a gorgeous picture frame Danii made for me with pictures of us on my last visit here last year that was a beautiful surprise :-) So far I am having the most amazing time - Friday we just hung about the house we coloured each others hair and chilled out then it was time to shower and get ready for a night out -we went to a bar called the Bog - it's an Irish place we had some dinner then drank way too many drinks and were both so drunk, and then yesterday woke up with sore heads but the exciting news I worked at the pub - The Robbie Burns Pub - with Danii it was dead but still fun - I enjoyed it and can still pour beer - woohooo and a fellow Aussie came in so that was cool, they had a band playing there last night so they came in to set up and when Danii and I finished work it was a rush home because we were going to the Rugby with dad - Craig - and then out to party again - the Rugby was amazing our team - The Highlanders won and then some of them came out to the Robbie afterwards so that was really cool, last night was pretty much a free night of drinking so we were absolutely smashed - was so much fun!! At the rugby they have a thing called the Zoo Crew its where you can sit and that's where all the rowdy people hang so next time we go to rugby I'd really like to go there - they have KFC mascots hahaha and they were hilarious so I pretty much watched them more then the game hahahaha SO FUNNY!! And while Danii and I were still at work a group of guys came in all dressed in Onsies they were on a cricket trip from Auckland - and well they had a little challenge a massive dildo and if some one put it in thier mouth to a certain line they would by like 10 drinks or something we both declined hahahaha BUT we did see them at the rugby and partied with them after :-) WAS SUCH A GOOD NIGHT!!!! 

I may or may not have also had my first experience of drunkly passion a kiwi - was good fun :-) Hahahahahahaha :-) Danii and I stumbled in the door around 4.30 this morning poor Danii had to work she left at 12.30 I fell asleep at 12.31 and woke at 6pm LOL 

We went to Danii's Aunties for dinner tonight it's her husbands birthday tomorrow so we had a BBQ so that was fun :-) And now here I am writing this :-) 

Tomorrow we are heading into town to get all my ID and stuff organised and I am going to hand out resume's - I could work at the pub but it's quiet and I want cafe work :-) Also to get your license here your L's you just do a theory online SO MUM I AM DOING THAT THIS WEEK :-)  

Well now I am going to have a snack and warm drink adn chillax - So far I am loving life in NZ and am looking forward to sharing all my adventures with you!! 

Oh and so far I am handling the weather ok... Lol 

Until next time keep safe have fun and always be Kind.. 

Much Love Kat xxx

A Farewell to Remember..

So after an unexpected all nighter on Friday and work Saturday morning it's safe to say I woke after maybe 3 hours I broken sleep and say on the couch feeling sorry for myself and a million reasons on how to get of work. After some water headache pills and a long shower I stated to convince myself I felt fine and that i must do it because I need the money! I got my Trackies on had some more water a smoke and a piece of toast I was unsure how would go down, it turned out it was the right thing to do. I also asked mum if she wanted to be awesome and drive me because facing the public and travelling on a bus for 30 odd minutes I was in no state! She said yes! Legend! Work was busy enough to keep consistent movement and jobs to be done it was finishing time already yay this was a miracle and not at all brutal as I was expecting it to be.. This improved my mood.. I don't know about you but I am one of those people who organises nighs out or parties and then spends every moment building up to it over thinking every single aspect until I ruin it for myself and do my own head in last nights Farewell was no different and after working with one if my closest friends Sarah and her making it obvious she was so tired and that maybe going last night might be to hard so I cracked it and told her if she was too tired and it was too much trouble don't come, this hurt me thinking she didn't want to go and that she might not go, I am a creature of sensitive emotions and when it comes to the people I love and adore I am sensitive and like to and need to know that I am loved just as much and that I am important to them like they are to me I mean why should t I be...!? In saying this I am aware I can be over the top - Danii you know this now hahaha x so with my emotions high and feeling hurt and sad that maybe Sarah and Claudia may not show up I was feeling rejected and mentally I wanted Nothig to do with the night at all and also clouding a nasty hang over and less then 3 hours sleep it was a tense afternoon .. I got home kicked back opened a drink just later low relaxed then decided it was time to shower get ready and find my party mood and by this time Sarah had messaged me decided she was coming and that we were both over tired cunts we love each other again... Lol 

We arrived at the Highway just after 6 on I was a little late to my own party how classy lol and lucky we got there when we did because even though it was so early the place was packed loud and cranking beats beltin out coloured lights and lounges and plans creating a beer Garden that was cool warm welcoming and comfortable and by the time we had drinks and got our table and seats my first guests arrived, I was happy thankful and ready to party hard!! It wasn't long and more guests arrived the night was going perfectly to plan everyone having a good time and getting along.. Most of the invite list had arrived and then my sister and her husband and their two girls turned up and with them Lexi was carrying a gift bag inside was a personalised necklace that is unique personal and Sam had specially made it contains a Plane a Music Note a Canera an A for Alexis and a C for Callie when Sam explained the reason and meaning behind it - All the things I hold close to my heart and that I can keep close while I'm away from home and my loved ones - Music Travel Photography and my two perfect nieces, I am still overwhelmed and my eyes are filling with tears as I write this - I wasn't expecting anything and especially this the most thoughtful special heartfelt gift - again me with my high emotions it's a personal thing for me and My Sister - we haven't always had the best of bonds in recent years due to my bad choices and lifestyle but as she gave me the gift and explained it's meaning it gave me the hope and realisation that maybe we are back on a track that will leave us with the unbreakable bond we once had she is my sister my best friend and life without her is a life I couldn't exist or survive in.. I wore my necklace and the night was amazing my closest friends a few missing but with good reason and my family it was a night filled with cocktails love and so much laughter! My voice is a little rough today but I am hardly suprised!! My cousin Lisa was there she's like the older sister I never had and when Sam Lisa n I are together it's as though we become black Americans all ghetto and gangster it's fucking hilarious!! We smashed up the dance floor Gettig our ghetto crump on it was the most fun I have had in so long I really needed a night like last night loud messy drunken bootyfull shakin good fun and it was exactly what I wished it would be the only thing really missing was Danii but she had her own leaving party to attend and I've been told it was a good one :-) The end of the night was messy at one stage I was on the dance floor with a cocktail jug full and a straw just dancing and drinking and smiling and losing myself in the music and the crowd - Bliss .. Sarah Claudia and I were the last ones standing and with being drunk and women and general it got emotional I cried they cried then we laughed then it was time to go it was for the first time official I said my first lot of goodbyes to all my friends I was sad for it being the last time I will see them in a while but the reality of how real and close this journey is made me so happy!! Danii will be here Wednesday morning that's only 3 sleeps Thursday morning we board that plane and off we go, there are actually no words to describe how I am feeling impatient excited happy anxious ready BRING IT ON we have 4 flights that day and it's going to be a long day but it's the very start of our adventure and I am sure there will already be stories!! Hurry Up damn it I get butterflies thinking about it it's so close fuck!! Hahahaha.. 

I woke up this morning again with very little sleep after retiring at about 5 am and  I woke at about 8 with my two babies Lexi n Callie we've all spent the day hangin out Mama B goes home tomorrow :-( Today we went to the Jetty Bar and had a few drinks and lunch and then I hit a real rough patch creeper hangover and lunch lingering in my stomach making me sick we had a quiet afternoon and Mama B actually had a nap I played with the kids and had snuggles and watched a movie now we are driving to Gawler to drop them home and have a family Sunday Roast another good night ahead I am sure :-) I started yesterday as a sooky brat stressig over Nothing other then what I make up in my own mind and I ended it feeling loved and that I'll be missed and that yes I am just as important to the people who are important to me!! Lol So happy with the night shit was so good oh and Claudia's brother David picked us up and we got pulled over and I was in the back with Sarah and we were emotional and crying and my make up all smudged and Claudia was laughing and told the police officer I was crying and he bent down and looked in and asked why and Sarah said cause she's fucking leaving the country she's leaving me and he laughed and asked where I was going and I said New Zealand he asked why I replied have you seen kiwi men?? We all laughed then we drove away lol 

So after tonight and Mama B leaving tomorrow I have all my washing to do and my room to clean again - it seems that's all I ever do lol - work Tuesday then Wednesday night family dinner out somewhere in Glenelg then finally it'll be the day!! I can not wait to see Danii Wednesday it's felt as though it's takin a lifetime to get here and it's so close now it drives me insane I justs am so excited to start this journey and get on with the good times!!  Mama B coming here for the weekend has meant the world to me as I love her so much I'm gonna miss her but she is coming to visit us in NZ so again more to look forward to!! But for now I think I've said enough time to finish my drink :-) 

Much Love K 

Excited Much :-)

Well what an amusing week or so I have had.. Sitting here over the Easter weekend feeling alone and questioning everything about my life and who I am and freaking out at turning the BIG 30 this October I was left feeling sad alone and like a loser - 4 days off and nothing to do nowhere to go and no company but my own it was safe to say it was  a miserable time.. Tuesday i returned to work for what was supposed to be my last week but I have picked up 2 extra shifts - This Saturday and next Tuesday - Tuesday being my final ever shift - I am excited to have it over with - feeling a little unimportant and not appreciated makes the transition a hell of a lot easier!!! Although my customer's I will miss and am feeling mroe than loved with their expressions of love and best wishes and making it known that I will be sorely missed!!!

This week has been hectic and I am assuming next week is going to be even more so - I have my Farewell Celebrations on Saturday night and I am excited to finish work tomorrow and head to the airport to pick up Mama B - Bernadette - from Roxby Downs she is making the trip especially for Saturday - This means the world to me!! I am so excited to see her - and everyone Saturday night... There has been a few changes in the plan - Danii unfortunately won't be making it for Saturday which is heartbreaking but I totally understand - at first I was a little shadey of it and again started questioning everything but after a deep breath a little sook I came to realize - Shit Happens and it's always going to!! So with this Danii won't be here until the day before we leave - next Wednesday but today she had some good news they are leaving super early so we should be able to spend most of the day together :-) After my last shift on Tuesday my two gorgeous little neices Alexis and Callie will be having a sleepover with me and Wednesday we wil be having a special Aunty Katta day followed by what I am sure is going to be an over the top emotional family dinner to say my goodbyes - This particular moment I am dreading - Thinking about it now I choke up and feel sad and anxious and I dont want to leave them - especially my babies - time goes so fast and they change and grown so fast I fear how different they will be when I return home next - but there is always Skype and video and loads of ways to see them and communicate!! I am worried about leaving mum aswell but deep down I know she will be fine!! I will miss ehr dearly as I know she will but life does and will go on!!! I spent the afternoon packing and getting all my things organised and to my surprise I was more organised than I originally thought, only a few finishing touches and I am good to go - They can wait until next week the final days!!! 

For the moment I am excited for the weekend and all ym family and friends being together and what I am sure is going to be an ansolute awesome night on Saturday!!! Mama B leaves Monday morning again I think that will be an emotional moment I love that woman so much and if it wasn't for her lord knows what I would have done in that shit hole Roxby- I truely fucking hate that place!!! 

And another thing to top my day off - My bestest dragon friend Amy will be meeting me at the airport in Melbourne next week as Danii and I will be there for an hour so this I am so excited about - Amy moved to Melbourne in feb and I havent seen ehr since and I miss her so so much I think this has alot to do with my loneliness lately she was always my right hand man - if you willl - LOL and then she was gone.. But I will see her soon :-) yayyyy 

Note to self get Amy a present - birthday and Housewarming!! Danii remind me!! LOL 

Well on this good mood I will Love and Leave you!! Until next time!! So much Love!!

K xoxo