Well Well Well.. What a difference this life has just now become - and all for the better :-) I started work this week - I worked on Tuesday and Thursday - Friday - Saturday - First Week training almost complete and a success.. I can not honestly tell you how great the change is!! I am apart of team, working somewhere I never thought I would be, and have the availability to learn all kinds of new things!! And the best of all - I am capable - and I am already back to the old happy fun and active me!!! :-) I feel fucking great!! Honestly it is so good!!! I walked in the door after work this morning and Nanna was in the kitchen and she was so happy and excited and hugged me - She's excited for me and that was so so lovely - Bless her - and Fiona - NZ Mum was all smiles and happy as well expressing how proud of me she is - such a lovely extra little benefit and what an amazing way to be greeted home.. I love you guys xx
It's amazing what a a positive action can do.. Last week I was feeling fat and down and lonely and ready for the mother ship to come and take me out of this life... I got the call Tuesday morning to start that afternoon and the change within was instant - by the time I had hung up the phone - Kat was back. I was here, I was ready, a new woman born again.... Everyone at work seem so lovely and nice, easy to get along with so that makes things so much more comforting :-) I am blown away at the fast change within myself and I think being so eager and excited for work since I started I have totally skipped the nerves which never happens - so I am guessing it is meant to be, and this week has by far been the best week since I arrived in this gorgeous country!!!
On Monday I decided it was time I did something different go on a little self adventure and discover something beautiful so that is exactly what I did!! There is a (Hiking/Trek Trail) it's called Tunnel Beach and it's only a few minutes up the road, so I asked Danii to drive me there on her way to work she was lovely enough to do that so, off on my adventure I went.. Rain and Hail wasn't enough to stop me.. I had no idea what I was in for other than the most amazing scenery, and again the weather wasn't enough to stop the beauty of the place - I was a little restricted as to what I was able to see and do but still I found serenity.
I think the thing I enjoyed most about my little adventure (which surprised me) was the time alone - not that I haven't spent enough time alone! Ha. But honestly the walk the fresh cold air on my face the silence in my brain, nothing but nature, the sound of the loud and aggressive ocean crashing against the rocks the spooky wind throughout the air, it was home. It was a spiritual journey and I gained a lot from it. I spent so much time dwelling on the disappointments of what I thought was going to be, rather then focusing on what was the now and what was surrounding me all of this time. I challenged myself. I took a step out of the box and found myself surrounded by everything but comfort. I was alive. I was living. I was doing what I have set out to do - Explore a different part of this world. Experience. Live. Find myself. And I did the same again yesterday when i went to the Botanic gardens, and once again the time of year and weather restricted the outcome but I still found what I was looking for.. I discovered something new and took another spiritual journey. I pushed myself physically, mentally and emotionally.. Walking for hours up steep tracks over looking gardens and the city of Dunedin, walking streets I hadn't walked before enjoying and taking in the scenery, the different houses the historic look of this gorgeous place. I got some more great pictures of trees and birds and all things nature and I fed my soul.
Bigger and Better things are headed my way and I stand here arms open and wide and ready for whatever is to come... It is kind of surreal feeling this happy and free and at peace with myself and the world.
A few weeks ago I wasn't sure what was heading my way and where I would be or what I would be doing. I wasn't sure if work would come through or if I would be forced to head home, but once again, I have won. I have survived and I am stronger than ever!!! I am so excited... My journey finally begins..
I had so many dreams and hopes and plans when I made the choice to move here, and bit by bit they are starting to form. Things change and people change, and yesterday's dreams are over and new ones are created. If there is anything I have learnt from change, it is that I can survive it, and I grow from it. My dream is only my dream and I know that now.. My life is my life . It is only I that predicts and shapes what it will be. I live for freedom. I live for adventure. I live to see the world, and most importantly I live for MYSELF.... Someday's I will be surrounded by all the ones I love, other days it will be just me, and that is perfectly ok with me.... I am where I am supposed to be and that's on the road heading UP UP AND UP....
Some other exciting news - Danii has found herself a wee little unit she will share with a group of flatmates so I am so so excited for her - I remember the first time I left home and how exciting it was - So yay for Danii - You go girl xx
It feels so good to write something fun and happy and positive - it is so good to feel like me again..
Until next time I'll keep the adventure coming and the happy snaps plenty!!
Love and Miss you all K xoxo
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